So I see a close of another year!

In five days it will be December.
I thank God for all he has done in my life, the things he has taught me and the way he has delivered me from, well let's be honest, myself.
Seems I have been my own worst enemy in times past.
Thankfully As G.I. Joe says, knowing is half the battle.
I have finally learned and invaluable lesson, God made me so I AM worth loving.
When Jesus said love my neighbor as my self, I always seemed to miss the  "as myself" part.
Then I always wondered why it seemed so hard to love my "neighbor" you know the folks I live with, see all the time.
I couldn't figure out why I could never get that forgiveness thing down, why I remembered everything any body did to me, not saying that there was some really raunchy stuff done, but why could't I ever let any of it go?
Well, it dawned on me one day that, I had never been able to forgive me, I couldn't even receive, God's forgiveness, which really is a slap in the face considering all He did to make that forgiveness available.
Yeah I had to forgive me of that too, and with the help and deliverance of the Holy Spirit, I have walked thru this awesome door, into an open place of freedom and love!!!
I am not longer faking it till I make it!

¹³Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before,
 ¹⁴I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
 ¹⁵Let us therefore, as many as be perfect, be thus minded: and if in any thing ye be otherwise minded, God shall reveal even this unto you.
Philippians 3:13-15

I get it now, and I'm so-o-o looking forward to where it is The Holy Spirit is leading me now.